Theme Song: September by Kirk Franklin and Maurice White
“Bah di yah/Tell me you remember/Bah di yah,/When your heart felt like September”
When I went to visit my cousin Howard last year he gave me an interesting perspective on my father’s family. I love Howard, though, and I wonder if I got my quirky sense of perspective and a tendency toward dramatics from the Griffin side because Howard is funny.
One thing I do know about my father’s side is the men have a thing for younger women, it seems. One day I was in a pharmacy getting a prescription filled and standing in front of me was a woman who looked to be about my age. I was in my late twenties, early thirties then. The woman said she was picking up a prescription for a Ward Griffin. I started chuckling and said to the woman, you know what, that is so odd that is my father’s name. She got her prescription, left and then came back with another woman asking me who I was and when was the last time I saw my father. I told her my name and told her I hadn’t seen my father in years because he died in January 1994. The woman told me my father wasn’t dead and he was living with her.
I was thought she was insane. My father was a mack; my mother and his wife were at least 27 years younger than him but I didn’t think he could get a woman this young especially not in his current state. I asked her if she knew Howard? She said she did; that Howard was Ward’s brother.
“No, Howard’s my cousin,” I told her. We were both thoroughly confused. She kept insisting she was living with the Ward Griffin who was my father and I had no idea who this person was. He was probably a cousin I had never met. I only met a few relatives on my father’s side and Howard was the only one who regularly visited while I was growing up because my father helped to raise him when his father passed away.
I went home and called Howard who said, “Yeah, Ward’s my brother named after Uncle Ward. You never met him?”
So here are two blogs I wrote last year when I did a start/stop on a genealogy search. Hopefully I (or someone else) will be able to glean some things from them.
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The Lives of Black Folks
Current mood: hungry
Last week PBS showed the end of the tv show African American Lives. Since I work in a library it has been a topic of discussion for me and two good friends, one who works in History and the other who spends every moment she can researching her family line. During the weeks the show aired articles have shown up in the newspapers about doing genealogy research, my favorite being this one.
Watching the show has inspired me again to do some sleuthing, that and a visit to my maternal aunt. She called me up on Sunday, the day before her birthday, complaining she lost her birth certificate and the copy of her mother’s death certificate. Since we have copies of death certificates here at the library for that year I was able to quickly locate it (acutally, Doug located it and made a copy for me) and took it to her on her birthday. I took Mimi with me because she is doing a family tree chart for her Biology class.
My aunt wasn’t around when we got there so we sat and spoke with my Great Aunt who has always drove me crazy. Now she’s almost 70 and still irks me at times but I’m cooler with it now. I don’t visit them as often as I should and so at first I was chewed out for not coming around. Soon we got around to stories, what it was like when they first came to Cincinnati. What was my great grandfather and grandmother like. What was my grandmother like, she died so young. My aunt is just a year younger than my great aunt but she couldn’t remember her mother at all. My great aunt had some memories of her although not a lot.
Many times when we go to programs on black history we often deal with historical figures, but not family. I think that is what I liked most about African American Lives, it deals with what we should be concentrated on this month: the black family. The icons are important but history is made up of people living, working, loving and dying. Too often I hear black people speak of the black experience in generalities, not about what their family went through or accomplished.
We took a picture of my grandmother home and downloaded it. I don’t know if Cricket got all of her questions answered although she did ask for a copy of the picture of her great grandmother. Next week we are scheduled to see my first cousin on my father’s side to ask him genetic questions. He always has been funny and Mimi enjoys visiting him and eating his wife’s macaroni and cheese. More to come on that next week…. |
African American Lives: part deux
Current mood:
frustrated
Early Saturday evening I braved the cold (well in a car) to attend our first book club of the year. My daughter was in tow because she had plans to meet her friends around 8 over in Cov. Five people including myself were supposed to show up and only the usual three did: me, D, and J. I don’t know if it was a tribute to our love of reading, our lack of an exciting social life or we were the only black women stupid enough to trudge out in the cold.
We met at Simones. It was my 2nd time eating there. When they used to be next to the laundromat they had a more soulful cuisine. Now they’ve moved into the new upscale building on the corner and there is no catfish or greens on the menu, only high class fare with entrees on the cheap side begin at 15.00. Well, the brother is working it out and getting paid. I can’t fault him for that.
When I get there (and get there late because Cricket doesn’t understand the concept of be ready when I get home) J was waiting inside the door and D was getting her flirt on. We meet at a bar table because, unbeknownst to me, you need a reservation. Damn, when have you needed a reservation at a restaurant in the hood? We are surrounded by white folks so I guess that answers that. I asked her who the guy she was flirting with and she was like, “I think he’s the owner.” And I was like, Oh. Hate to tell her, but bruh is “family“.
So, forty minutes into the conversation we finally get down to discussing the book, which my daughter, of course, had to note. Out of the three of us D is the only one who read Forbidden Fruit: Love Stories from the Underground Railroad. I didn’t finish it because I was too busy reading other things and started the book late and J didn’t finish it because she has mental block against the books I pick and thinks they are all verbose. So we discussed what we could, which sidetracked us onto black history and genealogy. We all realized that now we have a better understanding of history than we did when we were in high school. Maybe it’s because we are reading things that interest us or learning more about ourselves that help us put things better into context. D is big in genealogy and she commented that now learning more about her history line has helped to put history into better perspective.
I guess I will see as now at the request of Cricket I am learning more about my own family line. On Sunday we went to see cousin Howard, my first cousin on my father’s side. From my conversation with him the previous week I wasn’t sure if I could believe anything he told me. Everytime I talk to him he comes up with a new revelation which he backtracks on and this time wasn’t an exception. Like a few years ago he said my father’s mother was a white woman (which I don’t think she was although looking back I can’t remember if my father said she was biracial or white). Last weekend Howard said that my father’s father was white and I’m like, okay, senility is now setting in on my cousin because he’s tripping. He was altering my image of my dad, claiming he was lighter when he was younger (which could be true). But my father was not biracial and couldn’t be white and I ain’t claiming just any old white person on my family tree. I’m like Jeffersons, you gotta show me the DNA before you can come to the family reunion.
So we go there and Howard brings out all these family pictures. Now he tells me the weekend before that one side of my family are colorstruck and only want to intermarry with other lighter blacks and they have disdain for darker hued blacks . They like his wife, though, and she verified his story. And she is deep, deep chocolate. So I don’t see why they will like her but dislike other darker family members who they are related to by blood and dismiss them just on the basis of color. So he shows me pictures of nothing but darker family members, none of the lighter skinned ones. And I’m like, where are the Chicago cousins? They are part of the ones he claimed were so colorstruck. If they were they didn’t show it when I visited them years ago. And one has a son who is darker than me. They were the ones who showed me a pic of my grandmother and from my memory of the picture she could pass for white or maybe Native American (it was a black and white picture).
Its hard searching out family names with older family members (although Howard isn’t that old, he’s only in his 60s). The problem is memory. Things that I remembered my father telling me Howard discredits. No one wrote things down. On both sides of my family no one has really done a family tree. When my father was alive he didn’t remember his mother’s maiden name. I guess I can kind of understand it. People are were so busy working and living that they didn’t think to ask about the past, they just took some things for granted.
Besides the info for her Biology Class project I think the main thing my daughter has come away with is to check potential boyfriend’s family tree. Howard is the only one on my father’s family that I really know but I didn’t know he had children. I just assumed he and his wife couldn’t have children (although I knew she had kids) and here it was he had kids before they married, one a few years older than me. D talked about dealing with the wall of secrecy while doing her family tree. Maybe it was the shame of oow births or the stigma of slavery or sometimes people die young and they are forgotten.
I don’t know how long it’s going to take me to get to an interesting story about the family or if there is one to be had. The writer/researcher in me wants to keep digging. I guess I will see what there is to see.